Beginning to See the Light
Beginning to See the Light
2008-01-18 // 6:21 p.m.
Some people work very hard,
but still they never get it right.
So this guy all of a sudden just barges into my life, and thinks he can just make me fall in love with him?!
Well, I did. And it felt so wrong. I mean, he's sooo.. and I'm sooo...
not to mention the fact that I'm practically a widow, considering.. who knows what might happen to my darling while he's suspended in-house? haha.
Well, either way, I find it hard to be attracted to a bisexual now. I mean, obviously I've nothing against it. I'm just very very competitive, and it's enough trying to compete with other girls for attention. But other GUYS too?! That's just ridiculous. And what if I find that guy attractive?! haha.
I guess what I have to say is, I still love the kid, and I think we can have a really amazing relationship. Friendship, that is. I mean, he's a decent guy. As a matter of fact, he's pretty awesome. My darling's my love, of course, but he doesn't drink coffee or write or run like the other kid. It's like.. if my darling were Keith Richards, the kid would be Lou Reed? I don't know.
Either way, this has been one huge validation that I'm in love--today, with the arguments and everything. And I hate it.